we’re over anyway so this is a breakup song // Friday, April 26, 2013

I was put under by you like a crazy person
will you go away? will you forget a girl like me?

because baekpo's song is really relevant to my feelings right now. teen top feelings, to be exact.

it kind of pangs me straight in the heart whenever I see teen top/angels posts on tumblr, and I don't really know the reason why. jealousy, perhaps? jealousy to those people who have been in the fandom and been supporting teen top for almost three years, and here I am, just beginning to like them in miss right era. I try to convince myself that it's okay, but that thought dissolves little by little every single day.

I remember tweeting 'I hope that liking teen top is just a fling' even though they give me brand new feels that I haven't had in a while for my other fandoms, because really, I don't want to deal with the same 'omg here comes another teen top/angel post let me cry because I'm just a new fan and and' shit.

maybe it's just me, or maybe this is just a complex. I've always thought that it doesn't hurt to stan one more group, until this. let's just see what will happen to me for the next few months.