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04 ✄ it's an infatuation, maybe // Friday, October 5, 2012 At first, I thought this feeling I have for him was just an admiration. Admiration for his exemplary dancing skills, at how sweet he is, and at how smart he is. It's a perfect combination for a crush, really, though I was sure it was only admiration. Until last Wednesday,  when the whole class was so busy doing something for History, he approached me and asked for a yellow paper. We are friends, yes, so I just let him have one without even saying yes. He said "Thank you, Marzl. I love you." at me jokingly. I ignored the latter part and just nodded in response. Then he said, "Isn't there any "I love you, too" back?" and I think he smiled (I wasn't looking at him, okay). I don't know what has gotten into my mind when I replied "I love you, too" back at him almost quickly. Afternoon that day, when I was sitting next to Lara, I teased her saying, "Do you know, I have a crush on someone in our class." Lara looked at me and asked who, and of course, I didn't say anyone. "Well, all of the boys in our class are handsome. Except Clinton, Francis, and Denver." I chuckled at that, maybe because it's true? Then I said, "(He), he dances well and he's smart." Though I haven't said anything yet, I think my feelings for him just escalated. I remember when someone (I can't remember who she is lol I think it's Lara again) said that she likes it when he dances, and I agreed on her and said, "I know right." She accused me of having a crush on him, too, but I quickly disagreed it. "I don't, I just admire him." Yes, it has become a crush. I have two in our section now, but my feelings for the first one is rapidly ceasing after that incident on our field trip. Sigh, it's hard to have a crush on someone if you're finding it love already. I wish I'm not going to be like that.