02 ✄ sometimes, i just feel like giving up // Monday, August 20, 2012

not in studies or in life. just feeling like giving up on friendship. i don't even know how i can call this relationship with her: it cannot be best friends since she have her own and i think i have mine (but on school, she's the best friend i tell to everyone, the best friend i cried when we had our recollection), it cannot be just friends because i know we're more than that, and it cannot also between those two. it's kinda a love-hate relationship, mostly of the arguments were started by me, but most of them were her faults.

i know one should get friendly to others (or maybe just in me), but at least don't forget those people you spent your time with before you met your new friends. are you familiar in the phrases "make new friends, but keep the old, those are silvers, these are gold" and/or "what if you lost a diamond while you were busy collecting stones?" i don't know, that's the feeling i get whenever i think of that person, whenever i see the person's name, or whatever. did she change a huge part in my life that i just get emotional when i think of our relationship? what if i didn't befriend her in the first place? i would still get to know exo, i would probably not be like this. i want to erase her in my life because i'll be better off without her. ugh marzl, do you remember when you put a pride on her? what happened to it, was it broken? just because you two made up and are friends again? i thought you're smart, but why did you do that? would you want the past to happen again? you always like saying that, that "history repeats itself" thing. did that dissolve in your mind just because of that person? do you want to get hurt again? you are fool, putangina mo marzl.

why are you even giving the time to think about her if she doesn't even return that time back to you? why would you think about her if you have your own yeobo, namely poh, who is strongly attached to you and is very jealous if you say i love you to someone and is very protective of you, the perfect yeobo for you, the one who reply snarky comments back at you, the only person who wants your lips (lmao poh OTL)? stop acting, marzl. you know yourself that the concerned tweets for your yeobo are done half-heartedly because you were being bitter about that person. cut the act now. you are such a loser.

"i'm just a person who's only grateful to people whom i can benefit with, right?"  -- 20120729 10:51PM

you fucking remember that, marzl. do you benefit with her?